sometimes you sit staring at a blank page for hours. sometimes for minutes. sometimes you can’t remember what you were going to say. sometimes a thought comes and goes. sometimes it comes and stays. other times it comes and stays… and hits you hard.
for the girl who grew up at home, blessed with a wonderful family (with which she’s super close), who originally wanted to be a graphic designer living in the same city as her parents. this same girl was a picky eater, wasn’t too big on “adventure”, and might possibly have had a fear of spiders… she didn’t really cook either. (lol) for that little girl a whole lot has changed, and every now and then it hits me. today was one of those days.
yea i have a definite passion for people… friendships/relationships are important to me. learning at least a little about a person’s story, where they come from, where they’ve been and where they want to go… yea sure, i can sometimes compete for airtime… a little bit of a chatterbox. random ideas and stories jumping out of my mouth every once in a while. but i can listen too… and i love doing that. everybody has a story.
have you ever taken a seat and just watched people? maybe when you were at a mall, or perhaps looking out the window of your car, or looking down from a balcony. each person has a story. they have joys and pains, victories and struggles…
looking back on life it’s often a lot easier to see God’s hands on your life, moving around the pieces and working His master plan - the big picture, than it is looking forward and guessing what that might be. you can guess if you want. might even be fun. when we catch up in 10 years, naw… even 5, let me know what you thought and i’m sure we’ll both be surprised.
today it hit me that this little girl, somewhat of a homebody, is changing… not completely. i’ll always be daddy’s little girl (and mom - urs too!)… i’ll always care about relationships and probably always still jump when i see a spider. but something from ProSem today led me to really feel like once I leave and go abroad, it’s probably unlikely that I’ll be at “home”, settled back in Canada, for a long, long time…
it’s exciting! it’s a little nerve-racking… i feel totally excited, curious, and incredibly ill-equipped. and i miss my family already, but i’m excited to see what God’s going to do - what doors He’ll open and what things i will learn.

